A Choppy Yet Sincere Apology Songtext / Lyric

You wouldn't know me when depression kicks in, when panic's attacking and I miss medicine
When my neck can't hold up my head and I just can't get out of bed
When you see me (see me) uncomfortably chain smoking, trying to force up a smile
Then I'm slippin' (slippin', slippin') again And I don't wanna drag no one down with my problem
That's in my head
I'll probably snap out but I just don't know when
Yaaaaaa! Apologies from me
This is nothing that I want you to see
Trying to drown out that ringing voice
Mike, give it up, give it up
Like a pick in a hollow body
Give it up, give it up, give it up down
Into the sea, tentacles got me by the neck and they're pulling me down

I try to keep in check
Stay on top, teeter tot won't balance I guess
Every time I get one under control the rest start rising and then
I stay shut up in my home
Agoraphobic and alone
'Til with bit lip, fuck it, I gotta try
Hands clenching, sweating,
Don't want no one to see in my mind
It's not a pretty sight
The right half don't work and the screws aren't tight
Yaaaaaa!

Apologies from me
This is nothing that I want you to see
Trying to drown out that ringing voice
Mike, give it up, give it up
Like a pick in a hollow body
Give it up, give it up, give it up down
Into the sea, tentacles got me by the neck and they're pulling me down

Apologies from me
This is nothing that I want you to see
Trying to drown out that ringing voice
Mike, give it up, give it up
Like a pick in a hollow body
Give it up, give it up, give it up down
Into the sea, tentacles got me by the neck and they're pulling me down