Selfdestructive Today Songtext / Lyric

Well i think it might be time again
To see if i can still take the abuse
Laziness is what is killing me
'cause now i have the time to fill the holes
But i feel no sadness
In this grown up world i feel self-destructive today

Yes today is the day for something new
To see things i never saw before
But i feel there's nothing left for me
And it's me that will self-destruct again, and again
´cause i feel no sadness
In this grown up world i feel self-destructive today
I wasted all this time
To find the palace of wisdom on the excess road
But i know i can, i know i will get there somehow
´cause i still feel self-destructive today