Gray Landscape Of Despair Songtext / Lyric

When cold despair touches me
It's like gray shadows in my mind
Not the black, which makes you kill yourself
Just the pale shadows that I find
And they don't make blind... ...so i have to stay alive
and try to stand the pain
My destinations fade out uf my sight
And I know that life goes down the drain Memories - I am tormented by them
Existence - Is it just an illusion?
Lies - I drown in them
Despair - my permanent companion

So nothing remains in the void
Just my thoughts, which torture me
Thoughts of my unability
To kill myself...

I take a walk through the landcsape of despair
A front of fog splits the air
This fog I have not created myself
'cause my mind was destroyed by someone else

So I keep sitting in my room
Starring at the gray wall
I wish I had the strength to break it
But I cut myself like every year in the fall

I don't get anywhere
Like it was autumn all the time
I loose myself in monotony
Can capture my life in a few lines