Killing you was hard Songtext / Lyric

And there's hardly any air
And there's hardly any romo
And there's no more yearning
And that's all i have left
I must get out
I have to go
And yet - I am only looking for you
The life I never found
Life - my refuge in despair
All I did was to curse you
In order later and much depper still
To attempt just the kiss
You - the light of my soul

And now to you -
My sick brain
Preserved in the liquid of time
I gave you blood from my heart
Fed you with the power of senses
I let you have authority over much
Even gave you authority over my auctions
I gave you love - my trust
My friend - you hurt me
And yet - it is not over

I still can hear your breathing
And i Can still see the trembling of your hands
Memories begin to come alive
Begin once again to torture me
And quietly wn my heart
My heart - you trustful pain

You kept me alive
And beat me with more torture
And I still don't understand
No - it's not over yet
I still can see the brightness in your eyes
The twichting of your body
Killing you was hard though
Yes - the killing was hard
Your name today sounds like an empty book
Like a promise never fulfilled
Killing you was hard
Yes - killing you was hard
For a short time your were the light
And you were my gateway to the world
Thus there you lie now in your liquid
Slowly dying from within me