Reactionary-Album Songtext / Lyric

DISAPPOINTED
reality is what you want to see it shouldn't make a difference to me i put my trust in what you had to say it didn't make a
difference anyway i know you've tried your "very best" and i'm so glad thank you so much disappointment is what you've made
this expectations overrated disappointment is what you've made this my ambition is so deflated reality is different for me my eyes
are opened wide enough to see i've listened to your explinations why the more you fail, the harder that i try a case of mistaken
opportunity i guess i really got it wrong identity is insignificant or is it everything?

OUT OF FOCUS
i knew what i wanted and i was fixed on it i was sure of it, i could've been wrong it seems like it's never quite like i thought it'd
be the reality, am i where i belong? it's not like they said it feels like most everything's out of focus in my mind i'm trying to make
some sense out of what i left behind the difference in who i am and the one want to be it seemed so much easier when there was
something to believe a different perspective now andt he world i see is in front of me, and everything's wrong the grass was so
much greener when it was next to me now it's under me, am i where i belong? the world, it only seems to change from where
you look much different than the pictures that they took it's nothing like they said it would be

WHAT'S IN A NAME?
open-minded educated popular and medicated now and you still won't make it filled with silent indignation blind with hopeless
expectation now and you still won't make it so you're afraid that they will think ill of you get a load of me now and if you're
scared they couldn't care less of you get over yourself now it's fame and popularity i'll never understand if it feels like this is what
you need you'll never understand innocence and innuendo confidence and acquiescence now and you still won't make it
self-consciousness is not a virtue everyone is looking at you now you may never make it

YOU COULD'VE HAD EVERYTHING
ignorance and arrogance mean quite the same to me take a look around you and i'm sure you will agree the world is full of
people filled with hatred filled with greed it's such a rare example when you've found a human being you could've had everything
but you you would've been scared of what to do you should've been so much more to us than just exonerated why shouldn't it
break your heart in two? i find little entertains me anymore the problems of the world are often tedious and worn i'm reading all
about it with a chuckle and a sneer they say a new beginning and they say the end is near get in your self-assuredness and take it
for a spin you'll be standing by yourself when they've all given in it's "take before it's taken from you" every single day i wish it
wasn't like this i don't know another way

HOLLOW
i'll never feel again i'll never feel again then i won't have to feel this pain i'm in if it sounds familiar because nothing ever goes the
way i've planned if it sounds peculiar then you don't have to try and understand i'll never feel again i'll never feel again then i
won't have to feel this pain i'm in i'm not a great example of everything the world expects of us i know i'm no exception i've
questioned everything i used to trust a question of necessity or lust i'll never feel again i'll never feel again then i won't have to
feel this pain i'm in it's as simple as you make it and as complicated as who you think you are

THINK FOR YOURSELF
you think you know just what it means to be alone you think you've suffered for your cause you're wrong i don't really need to
know what makes you tick or what you think is right i don't want to know the reason you believe right now you're like the others
your thoughts are not your own try thinking for yourself and act on what you know still you try to defend these things you were
taught you've got to try to change the way you learn sometimes it feels just like i've burned every single bridge that i have ever
crossed i always try to learn from all of these mistakes mistakes that i have made but pride is a worthy adversary in the struggle
for yourself

JUST LIKE YOU SAID
and now that all is said and done it's kind of hard to hold my tongue because you still don't believe you're wrong i'm not so sure
what i would say if i could talk to you that way you wouldn't understand i was foolish from the start i've tried not to fall apart it's
just like you said but everything is somehow different i've tried hard not to admit that there was some truth to it it's just like you
said but everything is somehow different have you ever imagined what you think? the way your circumstance would be? and fixed
a picture in your head i guess you've thought of everything i'm sure you know much more than me at least that's what you think it
shouldn't have to make you wonder i thought you knew it all along how i was innocent and pure and you were smug and so
demure when you predicted i would fall

SOLITAIRE
i'm not so bulletproof but this is something i could never say to you this sometimes buries me and i don't know if this is someone i
can be i tell myself it's right still feels so wrong it's better than nothing i'd rather not be here all by myself it's better than nothing
here with someone else it's better than nothing i'd rather not be standing here alone it's better than feeling like you're on your
own i'm not so culpable i never meant for this to get out of control

BEST DEFENSE
you haven't heard a word of what i said i'd give anything to get inside your head you act as if there's nothing left to say i guess
everything is easier that way i know that you don't want to think about it anyway i won't let you hide from this even with your
best defense you can't deny the way you feel about me i know you think about it all of time but there's nothing left to make you
change your mind i know you think you're doing what is right but you're acting on frustration out of spite and i don't want to say
another word to start a fight and if you're so convinced that we're so wrong you're still standing here where you've been all along
it doesn't make much difference where we think that we belong

ICONS
i think it's starting again the same thing that happens when i'm sure what i'm thinking about is right but i don't know anything the
inhibitions decline decided to make up my mind i'm sure what i'm thinking is right but i don't know anything so why are you
loking to me for the answers? it's only the truth if you want to believe in it everyone wants to live another life so many
aspirations have been placed upon you everyone wants to live another life so many aspirations have been placed upon you i'm not
sure where to begin i've taken a lot on the chin and everyone else seems to win and i don't have anything convinced that this is
what you want are you really sure you know it all? so willing to trust in anyone confused by what they call the truth the only thing
you know for sure is you don't trust a single thing about yourself so who am i to decide? i've tried my best and i've tried

SHAME ON ME
it started out all wrong i wasn't thinking everything is wrong i couldn't see it i guess i thought that things would somehow try and
work themselves out i'd like to think it's not so easy to convince myself that everything is going to be ok shame on me this time i
was only trying to make the best of this i should have known fool me once then shame on you again and i must choose between
suspicion and naivete this is what you wanted anyway this time shame on me i still believe i'm right even though i understand your
side you have your reasons

ESTRANGED
day after day you go on living while i wait it still feels the same i'm stuck for answers while you place the blame i guess it comes
to this again so what's there left to say you thought you'd feel no different now that everything has changed i guess it comes to
this again what difference does it make? that you and i think better of the choices that we've made it's fading away i don't
remember everything the words we used to say seem insignificant today