Déjà Vu Songtext / Lyric

[Verse 1] As I fall deeper into a manic state, I'm a prime candidate for the gene To receive the drug addict trait
Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate
I seem to gravitate to the bottle of nyquil then I salivate
Start off the night with "I think I'll have a taste"
Couple of sips of that, then I gradually graduate
To a harder perscription drug called valium like yeah, that's great
I go to just take one and I end up like having eight
Now I need somethin in my stomach 'cause I haven't ate
Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachoes and I'll have a steak
And you think that with all I have at stake - look at my daughter's face
Mommy something is wrong with dad I think
He's acting weird again, he's really beggining to scare me
Won't shave his beard again, and he pretends he doesn't hear me
And all he does is eat Doritos and Cheetos and he just fell asleep in his car eating three musketeers in the rear seat

[Chorus]
Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know
Feels like I been down this road before
So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me
As soon as I go home and close the door
Kinda feels like deja vu
I wanna get away from this place, I do
But I can't and I won't
Say I try but I know that's a lie, because I don't
And why? I just don't know

[Verse 2]
Maybe just a nice cold brew, what's a beer
That's the devil in my ear - I been sober a fucking year
And that fucker still talks to me, he's all I can fucking hear
Marshall, c'mon, we'll watch the game, it's the cowboys and buccaneers
And maybe if I just drink half, I'll be half buzzed for half of the time
Who's the mastermind behind that little line?
With that kind of rational, man I got half a mind to have half a glass of wine
Sounds asinine
Yeah I know, but I never had no problem with alcohol
Ouch! Look out for the wall
Aim for the couch - about to fall
I missed the couch and down I go looking like a bouncing ball
Shit must of knocked me out, 'cause I didn't feel the ground at all
Wow! What the fuck happened last night?
Where am I? Man, fuck am I hungover and god-damn I got a headache
Shit, half a vicodin, why can't I?
All systems ready for take off - please standby

[Chorus]
Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know
Feels like I been down this road before
So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me
As soon as I go home and close the door
Kinda feels like deja vu
I wanna get away from this place, I do
But I can't and I won't
Say I try but I know that's a lie, because I don't
And why? I just don't know

[Verse 3]
So I take a vicodin, splash, it hits my stomach then ah!
Couple of weeks go by and I need it like I'm getting high
Now I need just to not feel sick, yeah, I'm getting by
Wouldn't even be taking this shit if Deshaun didn't die
Oh yeah, there's an excuse your loose Proof you use
There's new rules, it's cool if it's helping you to get through
It's 12 noon, ain't no harm self-inducing the snooze
What else is new? Fuck it, what would Elvis do in your shoes?
Now here I am, three months later, full blown relapse
Just get high until the kids get home from school homes, relax
And since I'm convinced that I'm an insomniac
I need these pills to be able to sleep so I take three naps
Just to be able to function through out the day
Let's see, that's an ambien in each nap, how many valium, three?
And that would average out to about one good hour's sleep
OK, so now ya see, the reason how come, he
Is taking four years to just put out an album, B
See me and you we almost had the same outcome ...
Cause that Christmas, you know the whole pneumonia thing?
It was belogna, was it the methadone ya think?
Or the hydrocodone, you hide inside your pornos
Your VCR tape cases, with Ambien CR
Great places to hide 'em, ain't it?
So you can lie to Hailie
I'm going beddy-bye with you baby
Goodnight Elanna!
Go in the room and shut the bedroom door
Wake up in an ambulance - they said they found me on the bathroom floor - damn...

[Chorus]
Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know
Feels like I been down this road before
So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me
As soon as I go home and close the door
Kinda feels like deja vu
I wanna get away from this place, I do
But I can't and I won't
Say I try but I know that's a lie, because I don't
And why? I just don't know