Never Tasted Tears Songtext / Lyric

I've never tasted tears

Like these before

And though they are the saddest

I have known

Their simple cause is none but

One of joy

For now it seems

I may not be alone

Upon this earth

As I have been 'til now

A truly unexpected twist of fate

For I had given up

On everyone

Especially myself

And thought it late

Too late

For any soul to cast a line

His hook would hit the ice

And snap in two

But someone blew a kiss

And with his breath

Unfroze

What ne'er a roaring fire could do

An angel now is mine

And from the start

I knew that I was bound to let him in

But while I smile

I weep

Because I know

That something ends

So that this can begin

God, what a fool am I

Or am I wise?

For years have I kept hidden in my heart

The name

Of one who never had been more

But whom I wrote about

And set apart

From other men

Though never did I tell

My feelings, nay

But used him

As a muse

An inspiration

Something to adore

But rarely did I think on what I'd lose

If ever

My affections

Were replaced

By someone living

Breathing

Warm and real

For while I pledged my life

To him in song

The same for me

I knew he did not feel

If I could tell the truth

I'd say I planned

To go on in this fashion

For all time

I didn't care

He couldn't care for me

As long as I could own him

In each rhyme

And have someone to think about

Each night

When torment

After torment wracked my soul

To writhe in sorrow

Bathe in pain's delight

To fill my pages

Was my only goal

Until the day

I dared

To call it love

For this love

Was the only I had known

And somehow

I could keep the rest away

For in my mind

I never was alone

And being thus in love

Though with a specter

I never did expect

Nor wish

Nor care

To take another

In that holy place

Though in my mind

I knew no one was there

Yay, in my mind

But not so in my soul

I loved

I swear I loved

Else why this pain

When of my will

I opened up the door

And swept the space

Where I swore he'd remain

And something dies within me

As I sweep

As something new is born

In every tear

Past years of memories

I long to keep

A future

That I both long for

And fear

There really was no question when it came

This shooting star

Both fire and gentleness

Who never gave me time

To make my choice

But made my will

His own with each caress

For once

And only once

I did not think

Where I should feel

And for that I was proud

But it was one thing to enact the part

And something else

To say the word aloud

For once I had

I felt

A shadow fade

Which over me had hung for all these years

And no true loss

In all the world could match

The sense of someone

Passing

With my tears

I hadn't known 'til then

How lost I was

Enveloped in this mist of my design

So much of me

My muse had thus become

That in my eyes

No star was seen to shine

Unless it bore

Some of my phantom's light

Or carried strains of music in the beams

Until my soul was open to the view

No man could enter

Except in my dreams



It's over now

And I am not afraid

I know full well

What I am meant to do

But late at night

When I recall my muse

I cry for us

As though he ever knew

That I had waited years

To hear my name

Once spoken

As it should have always been

I'd wait there still

But someone

Real appeared

And stole the heart

No man could hope to win

If to my muse

I'd ever said hello

It might not hurt this much to say

Goodbye

But there is something

Tragic in this scene

Which may appear

As joyous to the eye

Of anyone who witnesses myself

Bound in the arms and lips

Of my new friend

Completed in a way I've never been

And healing wounds

I thought would never mend

The truth

That shattered my reality

The soul I dreamed

But never thought I'd meet

And now I don't look back

Except in dreams

Yet when I do

The pain

Is always sweet

For only pain can show me who I was

And from that girl to me

How much I've grown

I've never tasted tears

Like these before

And yes

They are the saddest I have known