To Open Closed Doors Songtext / Lyric

swimming through black vaseline
is my existence just a dream?
can not tell which ways is up
what's below and what's above
fighting for a breath of air
I breath in but it's not there
so as my world melts away

I pray (16x)

that I will be o.k. someday
and may I not stay this way
then after that I take some more
hoping that will open the door
but the door is locked
from the outside