Paralytic States Songtext / Lyric

She could hear them fucking through those thin hotel walls

Â…She heard babyÂ's crying, she heard laughter, she heard sirens

Red and blue lights flashing through those cheap hotel drapes

Blood spilled out on the porcelain

The bathtubÂ''s overflowing



Paralytic states of dependency

Our waking lifeÂ''s just a living dream

Agitated states of amazement

Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

Never quite the woman that she wanted to be



Spread out face down on those stained, cheap hotel sheets

She spent the last years of her life running from the boy she used to be

Cut her face wide open, shaved the bone down, then pumped her lips up exaggerated,

A fucked up kind of feminine






Paralytic states of dependency

Our waking lifeÂ''s just a living dream

Agitated states of amazement

Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

Never quite the woman that she wanted to be



Night time at the hotel, there was fighting in the hall

Thin chain lock to keep the world out, she held her breath till it was gone

Standing naked in front of that hotel bathroom mirror,

In her dysphoria's affection, she still saw her mother'Â's son.



Paralytic states of dependency

Our waking life'Â's just a living dream

Agitated states of amazement

Never quite the woman that she wanted to be



By the time the ball dropped, it was already over

No resolutions for the new year beginning tomorrow