Just Nothing Songtext / Lyric

I wonder if I'll ever change my ways
I wonder if I'll ever stay the same
Will I ever leave this place
Or will I go on wasting days
Does it matter anyway? Is there somebody listening to me? You don't know what it's like to feel
Something that just can't be real
You don't know what it's like to feel
To feel just nothing, just nothing

I wonder if I'll ever join the game
I wonder if I'll ever move myself
Will somebody know my name
And when I'm dead forget my face
Do I matter anyway

I don't know the reason – Say can you tell me why?
I see season after season and how they pass me by
I stopped looking for an answer 'cause I'm running out of time
So I try to hurt myself just to know that I'm alive

I don't see a reason and I quit asking why
I watch season after season how days turn into night
I keep waiting here for nothing 'cause I no longer mind
So I try to hurt myself just to know that I'm alive